I’m kind of (meaning, completely) over my natural hair. So I relaxed it. I ended up with a bunch of sand in my hair from Cozumel, so I took my twists down a few days after we got back from the cruise. Washed it like 4 times. A week later, I was still picking sand out of my hair. O_O . Not to mention that crazy spot in the top of my head was itching like crazy again. It hasn’t itched once since I relaxed it. And I’m enjoying my weave. I did still have to blow-dry and flat iron it straight, because I only let the relaxer stay on for about 10 minutes, so it’s still pretty curly. I’m a paranoid freak about damaging my hair now, which is a habit I got from being natural. My hair (while still pretty short, remember I shaved it all off November 2010) is the longest I can ever really remember it being, about 4-5 inches all over. It touches my neck/shoulders juuusst enough for me to freak out and think that something is crawling on me, lol. Anyway, I’m happy with it, and I’ll be going with it for a while, since I kinda promised several people I wouldn’t cut it all off again. Not that it’s really gonna keep me from doing it, if I decide that I want to, but I don’t like breaking promises, so…
I write and read fanfiction. Yes. It’s rather nerdy, but I like it. *sticks tongue out* Maybe one day I’ll share it here. Or not. Maybe a short story with all original characters. Yes…that’s much less “geek”.
I am still baby-less. We’re on month 4 of TTC, and, yeah, I know that’s not a long time to be working on it, but when you’re constantly wondering “Is it something I did wrong? Am I not healthy enough? Is it because of the HPV? Is it back? Was my pregnancy with Izzy just a fluke? Am I infertile?”, 4 months with no luck can be a little stressful. You get pre-cancerous cells cut out of YOUR cervix, you’d probably be a little paranoid too. Or maybe not. But I am. My fears, and concerns are very real. But, I supposedly have 8 more months of trying before there’s any cause for “real” concern.
In any case, I have resumed watching my diet, 45mins-1hour of cardio everyday, daily vitamin, plenty of water, etc. All I can “really” do is have sex and be as healthy as possible, so… that’s what I’ll do.
I’m going to spending less time with Visual Luxe. As much as I love graphic design, and I want to succeed, I want Izzy’s success more. She’s at a time of her life where she needs my attention much more than I need to be front of a computer all day. I think I’m gonna devote my mornings to spending time with Izzy, and then during her naps, up until time for me to start dinner, that will be the time I use for my business. And maybe a few hours in the evening. I think that will give me a little more balance. And maybe even some time to *gasp* actually do some of the things I see on Pinterest.
The other day, Izzy walked into the living room, naked from the waist down, and put a diaper full of poop on my lap. Then said “Ewwwww.” Um…I would tend to agree with that statement. We are definitely in the midst of potty training.
I’ve been trying to find some ways to get more interaction with other kids into her life. I’m not really impressed with any of the day-cares here that offer part-time hours. The ones that I am impressed with will allow you to send the child part-time, but they still want you to pay $100+ a week. Yeah, no thanks. I don’t even spend that much on groceries. So, we went to story time at the library yesterday. It was….interesting. I was the only mom of color there, and I can’t exactly say that I felt very welcome. To be fair, the other moms seemed to know each other, since they’ve probably been bringing their kids there for a while, and I was a
brown new face. I probably definitely didn’t have the friendliest look on my face either, since I was, quite frankly, terrified. But I did make small talk with a few people, mostly in the play area, since Izzy wouldn’t sit still for the actual (rather boring) story.
I’ll take her back, at least once more, since she seemed to have a good time. And maybe I’ll be more comfortable myself, and that will show. Byron did have to give me a bit of a reality check last night. Where we live, black people are a small part of the population. Like…15% of the population. And black sahm’s are an even smaller part of said population. So…I’ll have to get used to being the “only”…and Izzy will too. In some of her classes at school, in gymnastics, dance, etc…she may very well be the only little brown girl. Not that she cares, and really, I don’t either, as long as she’s accepted, and loved. I just don’t want her to feel as lonely as *I* did in that library, even with so many people around.
Anyway, I’m also going to start taking her to a nearby park, cold weather be darned. As long as it’s warm enough for her to be hat & glove-less, I’ll start taking her every week to let her play. So, that’s library on Mondays, park on…Wednesdays, or something, and the Discovery Museum, in Little Rock, maybe once a month or so. It’s kind of expensive (not really, but I’m cheap) at $18/trip for just the two of us, but maybe after the first time, if she enjoys it, and there’s plenty for her to do, we’ll just get the membership, which is $80/year, for 2 adults and up to 3 children.
It’s almost time to start planting our garden for the year! We need to plan what we want to grow, how many boxes we’ll do this year, and where they will go. I’m excited!