07 May So Over It!
Breastfeeding, that is.
Seriously. With the exception of the first maybe…two months, I have been struggling with my milk supply for the entirety of this round of breastfeeding. I have sinus/allergy issues that won’t resolve themselves without antihistamines. Antihistamines dry you out, and my milk supply isn’t immune from it. I’m one of the *ahem* lucky women that resumes her cycle immediately after giving birth, despite full time breastfeeding. So every.single.month, there’s another hit to my milk supply.
Imagine me, guzzling water like a maniac, drinking Mothers Milk Tea, popping Fenugreek like breath-mints, always attached to a baby or a breast-pump, AND taking those disgusting More Milk Plus drops, only to barely sustain a supply that’s not even enough milk for the baby. Even with all of that, we needed to supplement with formula!
So, Thursday night. I’ve on the tail end of a nasty sinus infection. Baby has woken up to eat, at about 1am, like she always does. I’m nursing, switching between sides for about hour, longer than I ever have to be up with her, and I can’t figure out why she’s still so incredibly fussy. I fix her a bottle. A big one. 6oz of formula. She guzzles it like she hasn’t eaten in days. And it breaks my heart that my baby was that hungry after nursing from both sides. After she finishes the bottle, she passes right out. Super content, and I go back into our bedroom and start crying my little eyes out. And when I was done crying….I was over it. No more pills, no more drops, and I’ll be damned if I hook myself back to that machine. I.am.over.it. And as luck would have it, I came on my period the next day. x_x
With Zoe being 6, almost 7 months old, I can’t think of a single benefit to continuing to stress myself to death trying to breastfeed. She’s definitely not ready to wean yet, and I’m not even considering that, but she will be getting formula on a pretty regular basis from now on. She makes it obvious when she wants to nurse, and I won’t deny her. We’ll still nurse at night, because it helps her back to sleep. But when she’s hungry? No more hesitation to fix that bottle.