So, I did something I shouldn’t have done. That “something” was promising a sequel to the story from Love and Other Things. When I wrote “the end” on Tara, Kristin, and Val’s stories, for me, it was the end, but then I started hearing that people wanted more… so, I promised more, because you’re supposed to give the people what they’re asking for, right?
Again, shouldn’t have done that.
With every book that I’ve published so far, the characters and story have come very organically to me. (notable exception being Finding Forever. That project was conceptualized for a pitching contest with Kimani. My pitch was accepted, and they requested a proposal for the book, but I wasn’t feeling it. I pulled out, re-thought my plot, and let the characters speak for themselves, and ended up with a VERY different story from my original pitch, a story that DID flow naturally for me.) I don’t usually have to force the story to happen, don’t have to force the characters to cooperate. I may to sort through my thoughts, put it all in order, and come to terms with some elements of the plot, but i’m just the intermediary while they tell their stories. The relationship is symbiotic.
That’s not what was happening with Nothing But Love. I found myself pulling too much from my brain, not enough from my heart. I was forcing it, and the result was a story that I wouldn’t dare offer to readers, expecting compensation for it. With each book, I am working, learning, striving to give my readers something that is the absolute best I can give, and an improvement in quality from the last project. If I published NBL at this point, it won’t even be comparable in quality to the first book, and I can’t bring myself to put it out there when I feel like that about it. I would much rather disappoint you by not delivering the book at all, than deliver a project that proves to be a disappointing read.
I have to be able to feel the characters. I have to be able to hear them speak, and Tara, Kris, and Val just aren’t talking to me. I have to respect that. Whether they’re done talking period, or just aren’t ready to tell their story yet, I have no idea, but whenever they’re ready, I’ll be listening.
I’m sorry, truly, for promising a product that I cannot deliver. This is a hard post to write, because the last thing I ever want to do is disappoint the people who have supported me, but I have to stay true to myself, and my characters. I don’t mold these characters into what I want them to be. THEY mold ME into someone who is able to tell their stories as given. My hope is that you guys will continue rocking with me as I move forward with the people who are speaking.
Marcus and Naomi are different characters than any I’ve ever written. Catch Me If You Can is a different genre than I’ve ever written — romantic suspense. You can look forward to their story this winter. (Sneak peek of the cover, and a little sample coming soon!)
Anyway, thank you for taking the time to read this, and as always, thank you for your support!