Writing Myself Into a Corner

It’s 1am.
Instead of doing something useful, (like getting some sleep, since I’m fighting an ear infection, and I have class in the morning) I’m sitting here in my bed, thinking about my book.
I’ve put a lot of time, and a lot of energy, and lately, a lot of tears into this book. You see, I’m really in the home stretch. I’m about 13,000 words away from being done with this thing, and that causes me an incredible amount of stress. This is big. Really big. I’ll be a published author. Self published, but still.
I lot of that stress has been related to concerns over people’s reactions to it. In real life, very few people even know I’m writing a book, and I think a lot of people would be um…. scandalized, maybe, by some of the content. It was even brought to my attention that as a Christian, some of the language and content may be considered inappropriate. Of course, there’s nothing vulgar, and we’re certainly not talking about any 50 Shades of Gray type stuff, but I guess I could see that. So I’m going to clean it up some before publishing, but that’s just a whole new layer of concern to add to everything else.
I’ve been so busy (doing what?) This weekend, between groceries, and birthday parties, and church, and making wreaths, and being sick that I haven’t typed a single word. It’s not even just busyness though, it’s like I have a mental block against it. That’s not to be confused with writer’s block though. The words are there, I just can’t seem to bring myself to put them down.
It’s almost like I can’t make myself finish. Once I’m finished, it will be time to publish. And once I publish? Well, it’s our there. It’s done. Time to be judged, and loved, or hated, or felt indifferently about, which is kinda worse than hated. And that’s terrifying. A little bit.
But I’ll have to get past that, won’t I?

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7 years ago

You just do it and not care one way or another how anyone feels about it.

Cam Bibs & Baubles
7 years ago

Keep pushing! You’ll get past it.

I’ve been there. I was so scared of what people would think and say when my book was published. I just had to get to a place of not really worrying about everyone else. It was for me. Let go of your mental block and get your write on! For all of the people you think will have a no so good reaction, think of all the many more people who need to read what you have to say. 🙂

7 years ago

and THIS is why we love Cam!

7 years ago

Write. Just write. Don’t worry about what others think. If THAT is your story to tell, then that is what we will read! KEEP WRITING!

7 years ago

Congrats on writing a book.. and WHO CARES WHAT OTHERS THINK??? it’s your story!!!

Reginia {PoisedinPrint.com}

Write and write and write.

Congratulations on the book. Let’s make it happen.

7 years ago

Everybody has a story to tell; not everybody will love the story you tell. For every negative reaction, there’s a positive counter reaction. Some of the best writers write the stories the characters act out in their mind and they have no regard for what people will think about them. Don’t edit your story to please others. Write what comes! I’ll definitely support!!!

7 years ago

Congrats on writing the book! I don’t much like the idea of people having to censor themselves, on account of what others might think; let alone the church. Reality, and fiction based on some reality is not always righteous. If anyone would be offended, there’s a simple solution – don’t read, lol. But, you know they will anyway. All I know is that I’m looking forward to reading, when you do feel it’s ready for the masses. :o)

K. Elizabeth @ YUMMommy

People are always going to have an opinion. At the end of day, you’ve put in a lot blood, sweat and tears into crafting your book. You can’t let the fear of other people’s reaction stop you from accomplishing your dream of being a published author. Know that you have my full support no matter what!

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